The Blinking, Red Light

The blinking, red light that has lulled me to sleep for the past 365 days is about to be no more. This girl is moving from her sweet, little studio apartment in Wayne, PA to a four-bedroom, roommate-filled Manayunk house! I can't believe that it has been two weeks short of a year that I have lived in this little town that I've really come to love so, so much and I can't believe that I am actually leaving it. I can actually remember the very first night I slept in this apartment, well stayed in it at least. I couldn't sleep at all and I ended up staying up most of the night building my ikea furniture and staring at the red, blinking light outside my apartment window from the AT&T building down the street. I find myself doing the very same thing as my time in this apartment counts down, waking up in the middle of the night, staring at the blinking, red light....

As I look back at my time in this apartment, I cannot help but figuratively roll on the ground with laughter. Where I thought I would be when I first moved in to where I am now are so different, but yet I am so grateful. Currently, in my professional career, I am more lost and confused than ever, but I am at peace and know that I can take my time figuring out what I want. And in my personal life, I have some really, really great best friends and as of two days ago am in a really, really great long (but not too long) -distance relationship after four months of living 10 minutes away from each other. When I moved here, I thought I knew exactly what I wanted out of my career and moved for a boy who ended up dumping me a week later. Life's pretty funny, don't you think?

All in all, I have grown so much as a person this year, which I really think comes with the territory of living by yourself, having and quitting your first "real job", and being a young adult in general. I no longer question "what did I do wrong" or "what is wrong with me" when something bad happens, but instead "what can I do better next time" or no questions at all and just a simple, "this didn't work out for you, but something else will". And maybe you're reading this and saying, "Could she be any more naive????". But at this point, I truly believe that everything will work out EXACTLY how it is supposed to in the end and yes, that may sound naive, but I have no doubt in myself, in my work ethic and in my personal ethic that my life will turn out well. (And honestly, if I thought any other way, life would be pretty depressing and harrowing.)

I guess what I've really taken from this year is to have no expectations for anything. Yes, have your dream, have your plans, and execute them well, but also have an open mind to how they might turn out. And if they turned out exactly how you planned, well then, that is so awesome! And while I am a little jealous (why lie?), I am also genuinely happy for you! But if they didn't, keep the faith, hold on tight to the rocky road of life, because maybe, just maybe, life will trick you and create something beautiful out of your adversity.

Now...back to packing!

                                            

Phillies Beer Fest (before the moonshine) 😊

 "Baby Nathan" at his cutest! 

 Allison's 24th!